Happy yet….
After that fight with ‘him’, the way he treated me improved, and even tries to give me more security; (which he’s very poor at doing, previously) amazes me a lot by doing things behind my knowledge to surprise me.
Perhaps all these good changes, bring worries. Maybe some might say I’m paranoid, and should continue to enjoy these good changes before it fades away. I know it’ll soon be expired… and it’s slowly taking its effect.
*Taking a deep breath. Maybe I should just stop worrying.. Perhaps he’ll improve instead… He’s getting better… and I’m happy and satisfied with things.
Just hope I’m really being paranoid. I’m not suspecting he’s cheated on me.. Just.. scared that he’ll bring about an abrupt change - a bad one.
Perhaps, I should hide my emotions and worries under the carpet and pretend that it never occurred and continue with things?
Nonono.. That’s not me.. I should confront. I should ask… What can he tell me?
Maybe I should lessen my worrying. ( Lower security level) And place more trust in him. Yea..
Hoping that this gnawing feeling will fade away quickly..
Worried Freak
